SENIORITIS....STRESS?
I am using this final random blog post as a rant. Forgive me. Maybe I need a therapy session, but this will have to do to get my thoughts out. Perhaps a way to de-stress. If you can relate to this, then cheers! We are in the same boat together.
When I envisioned my senior year of college, I envisioned a lot of free time. Cruising through classes I found were "kind of" interesting, and spending a lot of time with friends I may not see again...for a long time. You know you see those seniors in the movies making the best memories and partying all the way to graduation. Well, in fact, it isn't just in the movies. I see these students all around me. I hear the music blasting outside of my house at 3:00 in the morning on a Monday night. However, I am NOT having these experiences. Far from it.
I knew choosing to be a double major with a very difficult course load would force me to sacrifice many social events and I have always been OK with this fact. I just thought that by the time I graduated I would have.... a little more free time. Turns out, I have NO room to have the slightest inkling of senioritis. I can't slack in anything, and sometimes it is frustrating. Usually when seniors get a job, they stop caring as much about school. Although I have been lucky enough to secure a job (which took months of time and networking), my academics cannot just stop. Being a pre-med student, I do weekly research and volunteering, still have to maintain a solid GPA-- which means keeping up with assignments and doing well on exams-- and study for the MCAT and go through the process of medical school applications and admissions. Which (to put nicely) is like applying to college on steroids.
Don't get me wrong, I am incredibly thankful for the opportunities I have been given and want to work to accomplish my goals. I definitely don't have FOMO (fear of missing out), but I do wish I could have a second to breath.
Long story short, I am just very stressed out right now. With final midterms and graduation around the corner, my schedule has gotten busier. I have symposium presentations, final midterms and exams, the MCAT, and am also having to apartment search and think about my life after graduation in a month.
Well, I can stop now. ugh. Sorry. End rant. Gotta get back to work. Fight on.
Hi Zoe,
ReplyDeleteAfter reading your blog post and currently being a junior, I can say that I am not looking forward to being a senior haha. When I was thinking about it in my head before, I thought that being a second semester senior in college would be comparable to what it was when we were seniors in high school. But now that I've thought about it more after reading your post, it's not gonna be the same in the slightest. And I thank you for giving us the heads up so we are prepared for it.
Elan
Hi Zoe,
ReplyDeleteThis post is so funny because I literally wrote about THE SAME THING kind of! My post was also a reflection on college and how this semester has somehow been one of the hardest of my whole career. I used to be a pre-med student, so I'm sorry you're going through all of that haha, I know how tough it is. But I'm rooting for the both of us, we are SO close to finishing this semester and college! Keep fighting!
Angelica
Hi Zoe!
ReplyDeleteYour post made me laugh mostly because this is how I think I will be next year. I think I am way too anxious to just have free time, and need to be doing something. I will definitely be keeping myself very busy next year, but am very excited to graduate. However, I do hope I will be able to take classes I find "kind of" interesting.
-Samantha
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ReplyDeleteHi Zoe, I really enjoyed your post. I'm sorry to hear that your senior year isn't going exactly how you planned but at least you're almost done. I too have had a stressful semester. I doubt it has been as stressful as yours with all your med school things going on at the same time, but for me it just seems like my workload only gets bigger and bigger each week. As soon as I finish one project or assignment, I feel as if there's two new ones both even bigger than the last to take its place. Keep working hard though cause I'm sure you'll thank yourself one day that you put in all that extra work. Congrats on your job too-- that's awesome!
ReplyDeleteHey Zoe!
ReplyDeleteI loved reading your post! Even though I'm a junior right now, I feel like my senior year will be packed. Choosing to double major really puts a lot more work on your plate, and I'll be taking core classes for my majors up until my final semester. Your workload as a premed student must be unimaginable from most of our perspectives, so props to you for sticking with it! I wish you the best of luck for the last stretch before the end of the semester.
Bryan
Hi Zoe,
ReplyDeleteOh how I feel for you girl! That is so sad. I hope you get some sort of partying experience the week after school ends... or whatever it is you are hoping for. I think I am going to be in the same boat as you. I have to take three summer classes and about twenty units for both semesters next year just to graduate in 2023! The disadvantages of a one and a half year sabbatical. Thanks for sharing!
Mason
Hi Zoe!
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry you weren't able to get a relaxing senior year. I have so much respect for you for being able to juggle both majors. I can barely juggle one. I feel like I have senoritis has a freshman because I'm taking senior courses as a freshman. I don't know if this post makes me feel any better or that academics is never ending. But like you I'm so grateful to have something to rant about. Hopefully, summer will allow give you time to relax.
Best,
Lesley